October 2009
fml.
Finally, its happening, this moving on business.
Heart&Soul XXVI
25/09/2009 — Words so dear before, mean nothing now. What was love is now several things. Mistakes, regrets and lies. I don’t know what the lies are. Were they your words, or were we the lie? All this time I thought i might have been lied to, when really maybe the lie was what we had. I can tell, that you don’t give a shit about me, and I should have known that from before. When...
Becoming XI
19/10/09 — In times where I need it the most, it’s really nowhere to be found. Its probably because I took solace in the one I loved the most at the time. Now that is gone I’m worse off then when I was before I had the one I loved. She solved my problems for the meantime but, I failed to realize that without her I was VERY alone. The friends I have don’t have what I need...
Heart&Soul XXVI
19/10/2009 — It really isn’t easy and no one said it would be. I’ll say this though, not a single tear was shed. That’s something to be proud of, no? I could say it a million times over but, it won’t happen. For therapy’s sake, I’ll say it. I wish WE never happend only because, we’d still be friends and our friendship would have never been lost. I...
“So open your eyes child,
Let’s be on our way.
Broken windows and ashes
Are...”
– Tim McIlrath & Rise Against
Heart&Soul XXV
14/10/2009 — Hm. Answers. The truth. All words that seem like a great idea but, in actuality are usually the last thing we really want to hear. However, we need to hear it. I really have finally just come to grips with the truth and some answers and no matter the good is in my life, it seems to be overshadowed by the icy darkness of the truth. In my past, there have been times where I wanted...
Heart&Soul XXIV
10/07/2009 — Forget ranting. I’m sorta done being upset. Done being childish. All I really want to know is what the hell happened? Talk to me sometime. Please.
Heart&Soul XXIII
10/6/09 — Hmm… so what’s up? Want to talk to me once in a while and atleast tell me that for some reason, out of the blue you hate me? I mean, I wouldn’t really mind. There isn’t much more you can really do to me soo why not just put it out there. Meh. Whatever. I just expected more from you. Guess I finally know how you feel. You expected a lot from me only to be let...
Becoming X
First 15 songs that play after being put on shuffle without skipping.
1. Baby Love - The Supremes
2. Sixteen - No Doubt, from Tragic Kingdom
3. Be Hold a Lady - Outkast, from The Love Below
4. Blueprint - Jay-Z, From Blueprint 1
5. Angel - Pharrell
6. Best Thing That Ever Happened to Me - Gladys Knight and the Pips
7. G.O.D. - Common
8. We’ve Got It Going On - Backstreet Boys
9....
“You’re just the girl all the boys wanna dance with, and I’m just the...”
– Pete Wentz and Patrick Stump
Heart&Soul XXII (revisted)
10/1/2009 — Time to move on? If you’re reading this, give me one last sign. Show me what it is you’re feeling or that you want and I will do it. One last sign. Guide me to where you want me. Closer or away. One last sign. One last chance (for either of us). Hello again, or goodbye again except this time is the last time.
